Have you ever asked yourself what gifts are yours to share with the world? What’s your answer? Has it changed over the years, as you change, grow and evolve?
Over the years, through classes and programs taken, books read, as well as soul-searching contemplations and reflections undertaken, variations of this question had come up. By now, I have a fairly good idea what gifts I have to enable me to serve in different capacities. As a case in point, I’ve been a lifelong lover of the written word, which has been a special ally, confidante and partner to me. It was my companion when I was a painfully shy little girl, who felt like a complete misfit in this world. In my adult life, it has become a deeply satisfying creative outlet. More importantly, I know that I’ve been gifted this love of the written word so that I can use it to articulate and share lessons gleaned from personal growth and transformation.
That’s why I was quite surprised by what came up on Sunday in response to the question of what’s my gift to share with the world. This question was part of a guided meditation led by a beautiful soul at my spiritual center, intended to help us open our hearts and remember the love that we are.
According to my inner wisdom, the love that I am, my gift to share with the world is Patience. This surprised me because being patient doesn’t come naturally to me at all. I’m one of those Type A personalities for whom everything needed to have happened yesterday. Waiting is simply not something I’m wired to do. And yet, there has been so much waiting in my life. In one significant area, come this November, it’ll have been 6 years since I’ve been waiting. How much longer will I have to wait? I have not a single clue.
The Contrast of Darkness to Appreciate Light
At the moment in the guided meditation when Patience came up as one of my gifts to share, it resonated at a level that eluded my ego’s defensive watch. Patience is an essential quality I’ve come into this life to experience and express. To explain this point, allow me to enlist the help of Neale Donald Walsch in a great children’s book, The Little Soul and the Sun, an adaptation from Conversations with God.
In this story set in heaven, the Little Soul isn’t satisfied with just knowing that he is special. He wants to feel and experience being special. God explains to him that he can’t see the light that he is when he’s surrounded by light everywhere. It’s only when he’s in darkness that he can experience the light that he is. And when he can experience how special—not better—he is being the light in darkness in his unique way, he can then encourage others to recognize how they themselves are special in their own way. The Little Soul decides that he wants to experience special in the form of Forgiveness. For him to be able to experience that, he needs someone to forgive. In comes The Friendly Soul, who agrees to incarnate with him to serve as someone to forgive.
Can you see the moral of the story? In order to feel and experience the essential quality of Forgiveness, the Little Soul needs to experience being wronged in a human incarnation. Similarly, each and every one of us signed up for our own brands of hardship in order to experience certain essential qualities of our soul. Just like light cannot be appreciated without the contrast of darkness, a soul quality can’t be felt and experienced without the challenge and pain that catalyzes its surfacing and development in a conscious manner.
Truth, Not Ego
If Patience is what my soul wishes to feel and experience in this life, then repeated disappointments and chronic waiting—everything that tries patience—must be part of my human experience so as to bring forth this quality of my soul’s essence. And, part of my soul’s purpose in this life, apparently, is to cultivate graceful acceptance of patience-trying struggles and honor their place in this human experience. A “special” my soul signed up to experience is to embody and express in human form the truth of who I am, not the ego-constructed defense of being a Type A hard-driver. In my ego self, I have no patience for anyone or anything, not the least of whom myself and all the ways I’ve felt like a bitter disappointment and utter failure in this life.
If Neale Donald Walsch is correct, my willingness to accept the contrast of darkness so as to let my light shine is meant not only to serve my own soul’s evolution, but also to inspire others to recognize their own version of “special” in the contrast of their own version of darkness. Apparently, in resonance with Mr. Walsch’s teaching, my inner wisdom told me that Patience is a “special” I’ve come into this life to experience and express—a gift from the love that I am to be cultivated and shared with the world.
What about you? What do you think about the idea of needing to be in darkness in order to see your light? What do you think is your “special” to experience and express in this life? What are your gifts to share with the world?
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